Scared but a fresh start is what is needed

Back in February this year I found out the company I work at had proposed that my job will be eliminated so there was the possibility I would face redundancy, I knew then it was definite, and from working in my role in Projects, I know that these proposals have been worked on for a long time so I was expecting the worst. In May I was told it was definite and I would start my 12 weeks notice period. There were opportunities for me elsewhere within the company should I decide to go for them, but I have been with the company for over 15 years and knew this is the time for a fresh start!......plus the journey to work and parking there is bit of a bitch!

I am scared, shit scared (excuse the language - but this is exactly how I feel at the moment) I worry about money as it is and how am I going to get a part time job to fit in with childcare without unsettling Sidney?????However......I am also really excited, especially now I have had a long time to process it, there are so many things and jobs I have planned to do but never pursued as there has never been the right moment. I faced redundancy a few years ago but got a job within the company doing what I do now,  then I dreamt of being made redundant when I was on maternity leave a couple of years ago, which never happened,  but now this is real and its really happening.......Don't get me wrong I actually like my job and am going to miss the friends I have made over the years, some very close friends, but I know I will always see them again but I will miss what I do.

What is next??.....I don't know, I have secured a small job for now, which is flexible hours and will give me a bit of pocket money and could lead to something else, but I also have other ideas like setting up a on line business, doing a course and updating this blog more frequently!!!......These things will take a while to do and set up, so for now I am going to enjoy the time off with Sidney and who knows what will come up on the way!